Spare change

spare change

downsize in transition
positively small
positively positive
positively light
n you may asked the question
what happened to it all?

30 years in transition
20 years in a 3 x 2 marriage
gone in 1 work day
with a 2 year still life pose
4 adjustment

n you may ask
where did it go?
n you may ask
what happened?
n I will tell you
I just don't know
n I will ask you
why does it matter?

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at 1 point I thought I could put my whole life into tiny card-board boxes, stacked wide and high in a 5 x 10 storage locker, rented for 86 dollars a month, plus tax - as I pondered, thinking long and hard, thinking I wondered, where would I put the tears.

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I knew that change was coming
someone read it in the leaves
setting stones in perfect piles
perfectly balancing every one
I knew that change was coming
like summer stealing spring
I sat there for awhile
perfecting the way I think.

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titty titty boom boom told me
(a folk singer from the east)
pulling up stakes
and making plans
was surely no mistake
kiss the cow
he told me
kiss the cow good-bye
open the gate
and set her free
don't bother to ask me why?
and we walked another mile or two
singing songs and telling lies
boarding another train
he left
as I waved to him good-bye.

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uh there it was
that picture of her and I
it must have been some sort of celebration
she was dressed in white
I was wearing suspenders
and the smile on her face could put a thousand clowns to shame
barefooted she was
I think
now that I remember
and we danced to a waltz
around and around
from June until November.

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and something tells me that I have been here b-4
wrestling with reason
listening to the wind rustle the leaves
and I wrote a letter to my x
explaining my situation
not asking her to think of me
but giving my resignation
reciting lyrics from Beatle songs
and one 'hello good-bye'
'please please me'
please
and 'no reply'.